Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Pride (the Universal Sin) is a Cover-up for Universal Insecurity/Fear

One of the first insights the Lord gave me about pride was during a conversation with Him about others who I was judging as "prideful," and "stuck-up."  (Isn't that the way it always is.  The old mote-beam disease at work.  Thank goodness He was patient enough with me to administer the medicine (the truth) I needed  this day.

He revealed to me that proud people are (this is His merciful perspective on us as little children) actually very, VERY insecure, frightened people.   Myself included. That when I (we all) are proud--needing to resort to pride (whether it be from "above" or "beneath") I am (we are, they are) actually trying to defend against the attacks of the Liar, Satan, who is always trying to make them feel negative about themselves (me about myself).

We're all so "in this together" -- this mortality "trip" (journey, wilderness, high-adventure camp) experience. We are all just such little children--that's what He showed me in the eyes of my understanding. To Him (and all the other grown-ups back home in heaven-the celestial glory), we are truly as "little children," and I LOVE what He had to say in D&C 50: 40-42:

Ye are little children and cannot bear all things now.
But none of these (you all) which the Father hath given me shall be lost.

Reading that was one increment on the way for me to realize that He is committed to save me no matter what it takes. He will come after this proud little lost lamb that I am.  He will follow me into the darkest abyss if He must.  He has no fear of darkness.  He will follow me into any form of danger and degradation that I need to imagine a metaphor for--leper colony, brothal, whatever . . . He will follow me and come into the equivalent of these places (where I run and hide in my childish pride, driven by Satan's lies to me), and He will take my broken, bruised, crippled soul (body and spirit combined) upon His own shoulders--those shoulders that bore the stripes for me that I might not bear them--and He will carry me out of the dark places I've got myself into in my pride (fear).

He loves me with a love beyond any human comprehension. He has patience and mercy and compassion for me in my immaturity (childish pride). He/They love me (us) beyond our ability to comprehend and God will never, NEVER give up on us.

The only way there will be a final giving up--will be if and when we give up on Him.

It has taken me many years to embrace just how much He loves me. And the more loved I feel, the less I desire to leave Him and run off and use my addictions.

No comments:

Post a Comment